"I don't want anything. Just don't freak out if I make a joke about all the guys I've fucked. It's not about you. Or anybody else here, okay?" I say, rolling my eyes and lifting one shoulder in an awkward shrug.

"Fuck. Look, I couldn't even talk to Dave about him being a virgin, 'cause I haven't technically been once since I was eight. I couldn't, like... put myself in his place, at all. He didn't even want to fuck me, at first, and I didn't get it, 'cause he's eighteen, and by the time I was eighteen..." I trail off with an awkward shrug, "I can't just answer questions about who my first kiss was or when my first fuck was or any of that shit, without it turning into some big fucking deal. So, there's no fuckin' compromise. Just... when I say I'm fucked up, that's what I mean."