"I don't know," she starts, voice not quite steady and she can feel a humiliated blush start up already. "It's just...that marriage license, you know? From home? It really, really bothers me and it bothers me that I told the world I loved that guy and made it official when that's so fucking wrong and I kept thinking about how I want something in my life to be done the right way and I..." she trails off, staring hard down at the table."